Day 38 - Lame

Nutrisystem continues to go well. Sunday was the anniversary of my dad's death, which is always a rough day for me. I stayed on plan knowing that a wine and pizza splurge were waiting for me for dinner. It was delicious and I was right back on plan Monday morning. Chugging happily along otherwise with a noticeably smaller belly. I do feel incredibly guilty for bailing at the last minute on a friend's birthday party Saturday night. So guilty I can't even bring myself to reach out to her to apologize. Passive aggressive me knows that she subscribes to this blog and will get an email. Hopefully she won't hold it against me too much. I was feeling super bummed and I knew former coworkers potentially were going to be there that I just am not ready to face yet. Anyone else feel like they're always being judged? No? Just me? 

The in-laws have landed on a Thanksgiving plan and, thankfully, it's the same restaurant we've been to for the past few years. Not much of a temptation, so I think if I shake up the schedule that day and have a Nutrisystem dinner at home before hand and arm myself with a few snacks and Nutrisystem lunch bars in my purse, I might just get through it without technically cheating. 

Of course I'll still be making my holiday fudge for the office. I'm at a new job so they don't know it's coming yet. But I do enjoy making it and don't enjoy eating it, so it's the perfect thing to do at the holidays. Are some of them also trying to lose weight? Yes. So is it a little bit mean to bring in fudge? Probably. But if I can resist the chips and salsa, bagels, even Rubio's that gets brought in, they can resist fudge if they want to badly enough. Justification? For sure.